“curate your ultimate mix tape as interpreted, when it shot right through, a bolt of blue. ” ..” I guess in almost every circumstance, I’m more comfortable doing something myself than asking someone else to do it for me.”

some of the words now on my collaged wall, including a series of RUSSH cut outs to motivate me to actually come home and sit down on my desk to finish whatever that’s in my bucket. 

Its been a while since i penned down my thoughts, nevertheless i really need to write this one right here before it dissipates and not even a trace of solvent can be found at the back of my mind.

The next few months gonna be a rough ride possibly one that i have never had the intention to buy a ticket in the first place. They always say that its ok to try, but don’t be overly ambitious. This is my overly ambitious trial then, If you wanna twist those words around.

To come up with a choreography, isn’t easy, it takes time much less i want it to be the one i visioned a million times in my head, and when i pause the mix tape right there, it stills feels like the moment i had courage to choreograph this item out.

Its ok to judge that i am not gonna put this one up on stage, words never fail to cut anyway.But not even an anonymous outrageous dunce individual like you can bring me down on this one. i have given my word, and this is about proving to myself and not anyone else so who are you to go decide that i can’t do it. Much less i do question my blind faith cause till now i have not came up with anything. I don’t rush things. If i want it good, i need to gather a million sources of ” i feel right and its right” s then i will proceed. 

Enough with the criticism. by the end of may’s semester before i enroute to paris, for the very first time in my life, i wanna do something for myself and for others, even if i suck at it, just gotta turn around and prove myself wrong. At the end of the day, i took that step and i tried. you didn’t. so back off. 

I AM GONNA MAKE THIS ELFING WORK. so watch and learn. cause i will watch and learn as well. (: yea and the very last one of my wall that’s smacked right in front of my face,

” she didn’t want to disappoint...”  well its crystal clear isn’t it.